be-awesome-with-me

dear god?god, how are you? long time no see you. since before i come to your earth, untill now. we never met. but i always feel you. do you feel me? hehe. god, i have so many things to ask, to tell. will you read or just take a little bit time for me? just a little. i'll be so grateful if yes. and actually, i don't know how to begin. but...right, you were right about everything. like...god, i don't know what's your next plan. i have no idea about what will happen to me in the future. i don't know what's the meaning for all of this things. god, may i just gone for a several times? i don't hate, i never hate. i just can't surviving more than this. god, will you wishper me the key? will you come to hold me? god, i know this is horrible, more horrible if i think this is horrible. but god..will you say my name? will you call me? will you save me? do you hear me now? god, please tell me something. god...how can i say thank you and sorry in the same time. god, i never ask you to give me rain of money. i never ask you to give me....god, will you hold us? hold us...we need you. i know, life is just like roller coaster. but how can i feel this way while i am still sixteen? god, will you believe me? i am okay. you don't have to worry me. will you tell them? thankyou god. for always helping me more than myself did. thankyou god for help us to be together. thankyou god, to help me showing everything. thank you god, i will start more than how can i finished those things. god, you know what? how beautiful the sunset. it's just like how beautiful you come to my god. god, thankyou for giving me everything that i have now. and take everything that i had before. god....who i am? will you tell me now? will i come to your heaven? god...i love to smile. is it good or not? god, are you staring at me? god, well i'm just a teenager. hahahahhaha LOL god, sorry...for everything.god, is it all impossible? god, i have those memories. i have once in a lifetime. i feel, i have no friends. i have no one. i have.....is it important about what i have? god, who will i be? will i be a great person? will i be the president? god, i'm not ready for die, i can't. god, why? god......hahaha will you laugh together with me? god, am i crazy? god, help them. you can do anything to me as long as you help them. god, great if i never life. but the most amazing present that i ever had is i can breath. i feel, god. show me what to do. i can't. i can. god -_- okay. what's happening? god, actually i have so many questions. it's just like...everything. god, am i the titanium? or a gold? or the grass? or nothing? god......imjusttired. god, god, god, god, god, god, god, god, god. this way making me crazy. ever. god...tell me something i don't know. feel me. clear me. save me. light me. shine me. touch me. help me. kick me. run me. smile at me. you know more than everything.maybe you were right about how's hard life come to us. you were right about everything. you were right,right.awkay.you don't know you're beautiful~right, i am not frustasted. it's just a kind of letter to you. god, sorry for ask many things, and thankyou for answering. i'll waiting for your answer. i'll waiting it up. untill you tell me the truth, the meaning. i'll waiting. then accepted in anything you use, in words, even action. i know, some destinies are by our own self. but still, on your control. i feel you. god, i hope you will reply this soon. thankyou.:)sincerely,somebody